A Little Less Crystal

Let's face it, yesterday was not, by any stretches of the imagination, a good day. AT ALL. Bless his heart, Michael called me after he read my post. I think he wanted to make sure I was OK. As well as we know each other, I have never revealed these things to him about myself. On one hand, I was embarrassed. On the other, given our history I was afraid I would scare him off. But I haven't and this means more to me than he knows. He called and suggested we talk about this. I could do nothing but cry. He said I shouldn't be hard on myself. I emailed him what I typically eat so he could see the difference. He made no comments about the calories. Just, "Don't beat yourself up about it" was what he said. I cried myself to sleep last night because it was my first MAJOR slip up and I knew the scales would reflect it this morning.

So I got up, checked the blog for any comments and there were two. One from Lola, whose name I adore and one from 4 oz, whose name makes me smile. They offered encouragement and the same that Michael did, "Don't beat yourself up." 4 oz also suggested that I weigh in on Monday. I thought about it and decided to weigh in today. It's important that I know what is going on and how those times will effect my body. So I weighed in........


AND I LOST 3 POUNDS!!!! I cannot even begin to tell you the relief I felt. I am now 249....2 freaking 49. This is wonderful. I have lost a total of 21.2 since January 5 and a total of 29 pounds since November of 2008. All week this week was great, until yesterday. I am so proud of myself on one hand. I know I have worked hard to calculate my calories each week. On the other hand, I don't feel like I have really earned it because of yesterday. I get that it was only one day. That today, I will go back to being mindful of what goes into my body. But, that one day, could have ruined my whole week. I think I have learned from this so that I can move on. I am just so happy that the scale was kind to me today.